The Round up VRS the Round down

So i was reading this article in the Glamour magazine talking about women that turn 30. It got me thinking... as much as I am in denial about the whole BIG 30 factor, it got me realising that I need to accept it. So i started reflecting on my life ( all 27 years of it) and NO this is not some pitiful 'young' female complaining about ageing. This article is about the really of eventually turning 30.

The other day, i happened to pass by my boss's office and noticed her looking down at her hands, I stopped and being the curious (quite annoying) person I am.... asked her " whats up with your hands... you OK?" and she looked at me and frowned and said " I'm conscious about my hands, they look so gross" So i stared at her hands.. and they looked fine to me. Thing is.... My boss is just over 30 - very young woman, but yet she was self conscious about her hands. This begs the question....." do we, as females, criticise our outer appearance purely based on age?"

So at the age of 21, if I looked at my face and saw a line...I would just shrug it off and think it was the lighting. But if I saw that same line at 30... it would be termed a "wrinkle!" But, the reality of the situation is that we aren't getting any younger..., but does it really matter?

When I was in primary school, all I wanted to do was turn 13. To get my first kiss and be on my way. At 13 I wanted to be 16, because that movie "16 candles" made it seem somewhat cool. At 16 I wanted to be 18 - legal to for most things....At 18 I wanted to be 21, have a boyfriend, have my own car, travel on my own. At 21 , i wanted to be 23 - qualified, career, maybe married. But then, it stopped. I didn't want to be older anymore. I mean whats after 23?

Looking back now I didn't scratch much off my to-do list and for some reason getting older didn't appear that far away. So what would any normal "scared" little girl in a grown up body do.....well? in the times before google (BG) , probably read a bunch of self help books. But googling women at 30 , to my surprise i get hits like .." Why women over 30 are sexy!: , "things women should quit before 30", "30 things women should have by 30"....I mean come on! Its like 30 is the age to achieve everything we wanted to achieve and more.... so what happens after 30? do we die?

I think (maybe believe) that 30 is like being 20 just much wiser. We old enough to understand adults ( much older) , we had our heart broken a few times, we learnt to work with people and are probably far into our careers, we've lost friends, gained friends,did things we weren't proud of. But we definitely wiser.

So yes I'm officially implementing a new strategy to getting old. Round down even when it doesn't make sense. So I'm 27 - I'm actually 25. When I'm 29 - I'm still 25. When I'm 35 ... I'm actually 30. And so on and so forth... Screw trying to understand this thing called reality. Its much more fun living in my parallel reality.... called DENIAL. :)